I've been postponing my entry for a while because i have so much to say that typing them down,seems scary!.

yesterday was my school's orientation and i had to be in school by 8,woke up at 6 and nearly died,met hui lin at 7 plus plus and had breakfast,reached school only at 8.45.My director was already inside and so i couldnt enter,after hanging ard like a loser outside with the rest of the latecomers,they allowed us entry but we had to sit on the floor behind all the chairs in the oh-so-huge auditorium.sian.i couldnt see anything at the front and got really bored.was taking to some guys beside me when this girl beside me starting talking to me.From her accent it was pretty obvious she came from china,and we became friends.(she has become my closest friend in my school,so far by the way)We hit it off from the start,she is fucking hilarious and she stays at tampines and went to coral sec,wat a coincidence..During the break,we were just eating and taking, with many of my fellow campers coming up to ask how i was doing which was nice,when a bunch of girls came by our table and asked(btw,my friend's name is jasmine) jasmine if she was of china origins.And so i made a whole other bunch of China friends.They were really nice and took real good care of me especailly jasmine and i felt so at home.
and so the day went by with me trying to understand them and vise versa.

Initially,we were only told that we only had to come school on monday for this week but in the end,i had to come back again today,to learn how to use my laptop,which was completely wasted coz i cant get access to my school's wireless from my laptop because of some shitass reason..but thank god it was only for abt 2hr plus.
ten i met P at her school,ate the very famous chocolate waffle,tat was awesome awesme awesome.Then after slacking for a while, we decided to head to vivocity to makan and asked J along.i must say i had a blast,it was uber fun and i love vivocity,its my new favourite hangout place,i noe i'm so out but watever.i love the chocolate factory and love love love the candy empire!!! i want jellly beans!!!We had the, sort of foodcourt food,its not the kopitiam its the other one.and had ben and jerry's which was awesome,to burn off the food,we played at the playground,which was btw fucking fun and funny!!! i nearly sent P flying off the swing thingi.hahahahahaha.those two were great fun lah.babes we need to do this more often okay.

My status with A is weird,i realised this only after P brought my attention to it.
She went like this,"eh dont u think its werid that you and A talk everyday and you guys are not in a relationship,you dont even do this with your friends"i was speechless.

When we talk there is nth romantic or watever,its just friend to friend,very normal.and even if we do not talk everyday,we'll message.

The thing i dont understand is why is he still with me? as in talking to me and messing me??HE firstly is ready in a jc,which means he's surrounded with girls which was diff in the past,and he has a shit load of friends from all walks of life.Next,he has experienced much more in life ten i have.and he is very very different from me.So much so that one of the main reasons i decided to go for my orientation camp was to have one thing in common with him,which was the experience of camping which he does very freqently.
Why is he still with me?there is nth specail abt me,i'm not the most funnest person,i'm not the funniest person,im not the preetiest,i'm just normal me,compared to him,with all his friends and his adventurous life,i look bland.we are so fucking diff and have absolutely nth in common(i have tried finding)and yet he's with me.

why??i feel like asking but cant seem to be able to bring myself to..how?hai.