a!!

my sms conver with a.

me:"...so got miss me anot.so long never meet.."
**this was at 11 plus in the night just be4 my movie started,so i was abit high,and i was missing him alot.but just after pressing the send button,i regretted it and wanted to kick myself for being so stupidly brave,wtf did i do that,why did i make myself sound so bloody cheap..i waited for abt 3-4 hrs,dying,thinking of the worst possible replies but most importantly,why wasnt he replying??!!!**

Him:"um...more or less .u?"
**wtf was that suppose to mean??feeling absoultly pissed and happy at the same time i replied with this.**

me:"psycho ah!!! i miss u??in your dreams lah!why u still awake?"
**couldnt i have thrown the "i miss u like hell"message across his face anymore clearer!**

then we just moved away from that topic..

its 4.40am,sunday morning now.and i just finished toking to him on the phone.i gurantee that as a friend,i can always trust him and depend on him for anything and i am very sure that he will always be there for me,but anything more i'm not sure..
plus he was telling me abt this girl that he thinks likes him and i was pushing him to go for her..wat is wrong with me man,like realli,i was pushing him..but i seriously dunno how to react otherwise,wat am i supose to say??ask him to ask her to eat shit?i'm only good at toking but not pushing for things for myself.

i'm sleeping now.toking in circles and i want to watch 200 pounds beauty so good nite.