The DREAM.

i had a dream on the last nite tat i stayed in penang.

it really was a dream,with the edges cloudy/smokey and air filled with pink clouds and loads and loads of LOVE.

i saw myself with a guy(couldnt see the face but was chi..)and we were both completely in love with each other just completly,like the world didnt matter and onli i mattered to him and vise versa.
----------which is weird,coz since CK,whenever i'm in a relationship or watever,i feel suffocated and miserable,with the fact that i'm attached,just the thot of the such future happenings,i get scared....i'm very werid--------

i also saw him being very athetlic(godknows how to spell tat shit!)and he was on stage and he won smt and i felt so proud of him,becoz he was MINE,and he did well ,i was so excited so happy,so warm.

Then we hugged,me in his arms,pressing his body against mine,i felt save and wanted the moment to last an eternity.(being the conservative me,holding hands is already a big deal,so i was so shocked in the dream with male contact like this,but i kinda enjoyed it)

Then we just walked hand in hand,sat one a ledge of smt,and just looked out to smt( its either moutains or the sea)and swing our legs and were just so hapy with each other's pressence.i felt so blessed and happy and warm..

thru out everything,not a single word was exchanged between us,and yet we understood each other so well,theres was so much eye contat,i guess the LOVE between us did the toking,it was so much tat toking wasnt neccessay.

thru out the dream,i felt LOVE,i felt WARM,i felt SAVE,i felt extreme HAPPINESS.

****IS THIS WHAT LOVE IS?****

if so,i've felt it,whats weird is that i didnt even see his face,which like what hui lin says may be a good thing.whatever it is,i couldnt stop thinking abt it the whole day, even after finding out that we missed the plane the next day and everyone was sulking and moody,i just thot of the dream and i felt the whole sensation again and was hapy again.hehe(bad me!)

Its been3 days since the dream,and my poor memory is failing me again,althou i can sort of remember the dream,i've forgotten the sensation.but i dun think i'd want to dream it again,i guess i'm just scared.coz as good as that feeling was,i could also feel some hidden danger,like a sucking machine,it felt dangerous.(i'm so DRAMA!)

oh and i went Night Safari yest nite,details, next post,need to slp now,tml got ICA!!haha and here i am dreaming!nite.