Stuff

i had such an awesome, awesome time.its like when u miss some ppl so much,nth else matters like the fact tat i practically only slept for 4 plus hrs.i really wanted to see them,to distract me from The Fy.

the stress is building.
the space is getting suffocating.

watever tat happened today was waiting to happen.i knew it was coming..but i was hoping for things to get better.which obviously didnt happen.

the thing is,i couldnt cry after wat happened,but my eyes hurt,they hurt so much tat it felt like i've been actually brawling for a long time.

my heart just broke i guess.

school's starting and my issues are only growing.wtf!
the good thing is however tat i'm actually excited abt school coz ten i'll be able to have my mind concentrating on smt other ten my growing issues.

i know i've disappointed p time and time again and yet her faith in me never lessens.
she fights for my rights and was/is there whenever i needed.p was always a call away.someone i had confidences in tat will always have my back and would come to my aid whenever needed..

i apologise for what happened today and everytime i do stuff like tat,i bite myself 4 being like tat..

i want to to do really well. i want it for myself but more so i want to do it for her.for her to at least once be proud of me.and smile looking in my eye with pride.