i had such an awesome, awesome time.its like when u miss some ppl so much,nth else matters like the fact tat i practically only slept for 4 plus hrs.i really wanted to see them,to distract me from The Fy.
the stress is building.
the space is getting suffocating.
watever tat happened today was waiting to happen.i knew it was coming..but i was hoping for things to get better.which obviously didnt happen.
the thing is,i couldnt cry after wat happened,but my eyes hurt,they hurt so much tat it felt like i've been actually brawling for a long time.
my heart just broke i guess.
school's starting and my issues are only growing.wtf!
the good thing is however tat i'm actually excited abt school coz ten i'll be able to have my mind concentrating on smt other ten my growing issues.
i know i've disappointed p time and time again and yet her faith in me never lessens.
she fights for my rights and was/is there whenever i needed.p was always a call away.someone i had confidences in tat will always have my back and would come to my aid whenever needed..
i apologise for what happened today and everytime i do stuff like tat,i bite myself 4 being like tat..
i want to to do really well. i want it for myself but more so i want to do it for her.for her to at least once be proud of me.and smile looking in my eye with pride.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
How to say goodbye to someone i need to but dun want to.
so how realli??
theres just one prob with the last option,the person is not my boyfriend.
another thing is i dont even noe if this decision was made by my head or heart,wat i do noe tat is was made by me and i'm going to follow thru..somehow.
on a totalli diff note: it was my mother's bday yest! and we had a whole lot of fun since it was a surprise party.
the night be4 was a disaster,and the day after,a success..god works in weird ways..
was feeling uber bad the day be4 my mum's bday, was a total body mulfunction but i had to be there for my dear friends who came for me.hl and eg, u guys can never fail me.i was just thinking the other day,if there were ppl out of my family,whom i can trust to depend on,it would be the two of u! thanks alot.for everyting.and for the years of friendship and many more to come!.
coming back to my first thot,i think all i actually want is male support.no i'm not exactly desperate and all but just the thot of knowing tat there is tat special someone who cares for me..well..just warms my heart........wat am i saying lah?!!i sound in love! haha no i'm definately not.
wat i do noe is tat i have not found tat in tat person.unfortunately.
- by stop replying the person's messages?
- by being mean and rude?
- or by just plainly saying " i need a time-out."
theres just one prob with the last option,the person is not my boyfriend.
another thing is i dont even noe if this decision was made by my head or heart,wat i do noe tat is was made by me and i'm going to follow thru..somehow.
on a totalli diff note: it was my mother's bday yest! and we had a whole lot of fun since it was a surprise party.
the night be4 was a disaster,and the day after,a success..god works in weird ways..
was feeling uber bad the day be4 my mum's bday, was a total body mulfunction but i had to be there for my dear friends who came for me.hl and eg, u guys can never fail me.i was just thinking the other day,if there were ppl out of my family,whom i can trust to depend on,it would be the two of u! thanks alot.for everyting.and for the years of friendship and many more to come!.
coming back to my first thot,i think all i actually want is male support.no i'm not exactly desperate and all but just the thot of knowing tat there is tat special someone who cares for me..well..just warms my heart........wat am i saying lah?!!i sound in love! haha no i'm definately not.
wat i do noe is tat i have not found tat in tat person.unfortunately.
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